You would never believe
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How much you are missed
Never thought you shared so much
How much you meant to so many
For someone that seemed so tough
You would never believe
Everything I miss
About the daily phone calls just to check in
To tell me about a scenario
Or here we go again
You would never believe
How much your family’s been tested
But we’ve pulled it together
Attempt to fill the void of your loss
And we’re closer than ever
I could never have believed
Part of me so unprepared
For this loss without end
The other, ready to take on the world
I carry you with me, each step of the way
Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!
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It is hard to believe that it has been more than a year since you left us. I know it has been a long time since I have posted anything on here even though there are so many stories to share about the good times, the bad times, and all the lessons learned. Today just seemed like the right time to share again how much the two of you meant to me.
First and foremost, you were more than successful in the most important job you ever had, raising us four kids. Somehow all of us turned out OK. I know it was questionable at times for each of us, especially me and you no doubt worried, “Where the hell did I go wrong with this one?” Well, the thing is you didn’t. We all had a different path to take, but in the end, we ended up to be in the right place at the right time. We also ended up with so many different skills that I think if you had tried, you could not duplicate it. I could go through each one of us and list them all out, but I do not think that is necessary since anyone that knows us and what we have done, understands this to be true.
The foundation put down by Cutter Oil since 1982 allowed CJ to spearhead a new chapter in the history that is Cutter Oil. It is one that brought us all together; working for the common goal is crushing the competition. We probably worked double or triple the time than anyone else did and in 3 short years, Cutter Oil was the #2 producer of oil in the state of Ohio behind the largest producer in the state that operates 75 times the number of wells that Cutter Oil operates. Can you imagine that? This kind of shit does not happen to those that just wait for things to pass by. Our family made shit happen.
The decision to get back into drilling forced all of us to make sacrifices but none more than you two who could have just road off into the sunset on your boat. Instead you brought us all together, guided us on the path to success even though there were many times over that I am sure you both questioned, “Is it worth these headaches?” The fighting, the arguments, the pissing contents, no doubt, were hard for you both to deal with. You both made a lot of good decisions to be as successful as you have been and the new chapter is no different. Without that, we would not have anyone that knows as much as we do, especially CJ, to take everything over and keep Cutter Oil and the family moving forward in the business you started.
I do not want this to be only about Cutter Oil, but it does define, more than anything, our family. The sacrifice required and the success that can attained with the drive and dedication to something that you believe in. You did a hell of a job.
I recently watched a movie that had a line in it that I think is very fitting, “Give your kids enough money to do something, but not enough to do nothing.”
In Memory of CRC
ShareI wanted to share a picture of the bench that was donated by Charlie, Susie, and Courtney Dunn in the memory of Dad that was at the Wayne County Fair. He loved the fair, especially people watching while sitting on benches like this one.
Walkway for Dad
ShareI just wanted to share something that some of many friends that Dad and Mom made down in Florida did that came as a complete surprise. They dedicated a walkway right on the water to Dad. We all were very touched by this and just want to thank all of them.
Many people did not know how to take Dad sometimes, but it is obvious that the people that got to know him really enjoyed their time with him. They made many great friends down at Punta Rassa.
Thanks every, it meant so much to us all!
Wayne County Fair
ShareWe went back to Ohio for the Wayne County Fair so that Gia would get to see all of the animals and she just loved it. We learned firsthand what happens when you give a small child sugar. She was running up and down the aisles of the cow barns for a solid 30 minute. There were so many times I kept thinking about how much Dad was looking forward to walking her around. I do not think that he would have been up for pushing a stroller, but maybe chasing her in the cow barn some.
I also again benefited from Dad having the relationships he did because I got rock star parking at Merit Pump which is right across the street. When I pulled up the first night, there was a car load of people that pulled up too and went to park but saw the no parking sign. The guy asked “do you have a parking pass for this place?” You know, because if this guy parks here without permission then I am too. I replied “nope, we know the guy who owns the place.” Thanks Dundar! John even said he had his first pork sandwich without Dad for the first time in many years.
We also got to see Jaime in the Cutter Oil car. This was supposed to be his last year…well t is always his last year, but this time his car barely got touched so we know he has at least one more run in there for him to run a Cutter Oil car.
It has been a number of years since I have been to the fair, but I sure did miss Dad being there.
Last weekend with Dad
ShareThere are some things that I just keep going back to, thinking about Dad. One of those times was the last time I was together with him in person a few weeks before he passed down in Ft Myers. We were coming across the parking lot after a day out on the boat, a very hot day. Dad come over and put his arm around me to give me a hug. At first, I thought, oh, Dad is showing a soft side and then I noticed how much he was laughing. H was show a soft side but he also had ulterior motives because he was getting me back from the ‘peed a little bit on my hands’ bit I got him with years ago.
That was also Gia’s first ride on the boat. Gia did not really get to take much of a nap on that day and was pretty cranky. I held her while we were idling up the river and as soon as we got through the no wake zone, Dad mashed the throttle only to get yelled out by a few of us because the baby was sleeping. He had clearly forgot. I can still picture the look on his face cause he had been waiting on that the whole time.
It was also the last time she got to be with her Papa. It really sucks she will never get to share all the great times with him because I know he was looking forward to that part of his life. It was time to really enjoy all the things you work for, especially spoiling the grandkids.
I gave her to Dad as soon as I got there. Gia was actually pretty good on the two hour drive down, but hey, he was there hanging out by himself.
Gia on the boat.
Soap Box Derby Champion – 1967
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Dad was definitely proud of winning the Soap Box Derby in 1967. He would talk about how Grandpa made him practice by hauling his car up to the top of the hill down from the farm and he would practice driving that thing as straight as an arrow. Up and down the road he went. He had a lot to live up to since his older brother Garry had won too. There is nothing like a little sibling rivalry to bring out a little extra in a kid.
All of the practicing got him to the nationals, but he did not take home the big trophy because he said he got scared. Back then they took the cars all the way to the top of the hill and by the time they hit the finish line they were doing 90+, if I remember the story correctly. The other trick you had to do in order to win was to use a different type of oil on the bearings to reduce the friction, thus getting the car to go even faster. He said that if he had been a little older (he was only 12) unlike the kid that won who was 16 he would have done it. The Derby is not what it once was.
I thought it would be good to share a few of the photos on it.
Dad with his finished car before the race.
Need for speed?
You can tell he was a pretty small kid. There is a picture of this girl giving him a kiss that was on the front page after he won. He was all smiles.
This was all that was left of the car 25 years later, it sat down in the basement for years. Josh will be restoring the car to its original state.
Note From Lisa
ShareMy cousin Lisa posted this to 1000 Memories, but I thought it should belong here too.
Uncle Chuck, I am trying to be strong for you, although, I am not doing a very good job. I feel lost and confused…. like I did when we lost Grandma Cutter in 1995. The difference was, you! You were there to hold me and help me to understand why she was taken from us.
You & Aunt Beth have always been there for me throughout my life and I never imagined my life without the two of you in it.
When I was a little girl, I remember you visiting Grandma and Grandpa Cutter in Florida as often as you could and I would not miss those visits for anything. You always treated me like a daughter. You enjoyed giving me and CJ pointers in the old tractor tire sand box (although biting me was CJ’s mission on most days) you always gave me piggy back rides out to grandpa’s garden and would tell stories with Grandpa about your childhood memories on the farm. Those old stories always made us laugh and you and grandpa got a kick out of it. I loved seeing the two of you laugh about things that were not so funny back then.
From there you would just always check on me all the way from Ohio, making sure I was doing well. You even got me into modeling my freshman year of high school. I was so fortunate to have spent those summers with you, Aunt Beth, my cousins and your friends Steve, Gary and Chris. – Remember …Chucky, Wucky, Woo?? Oh my goodness, everyone got a kick out of that and you would turn 10 shades of red. I can’t express what those summers in Ohio meant to me and will always mean to me.
The other day I was reminded of the time you took me to work with you. Ugh..the dreaded 5 am wake-up talk “get your ass up, the bus is leaving with or without you”! Little did you know what was in store for you that day, (ha-ha)
From my wedding day to the birth of my four children you & Aunt Beth were there with us every step of the way and became God-parents to Kaitlynn Elizabeth in 1998, you were so proud. We shared many long talks on the phone. You would call me while on the road working and ask me, “What’s up?” I loved it when you called and sometimes you leaned on me for advice. I miss those talks and how you always knew how to put things into perspective. I’m so sorry that I did not call you more often in the days before you left us. Since we were going to spend time with you over Thanksgiving, I was sure we would catch up then. I was so looking forward to you telling me stories about when Jared, Jr and Kaitlynn were in Ohio months before. Your stories were the best!
Miss you -
Your Niece, Lis
Every Step
ShareIt has been a long time since I put anything on here when so much has happened in the past few. I have been thinking about my Dad a lot lately because everything either reminds me of him or I just think that it would be so great to be able to ask him this right now. What does he think about doing it this way? Even if he did not specifically know what I was talking about because it was technology, he would have something to add.
First, my sister’s wedding. Who could argue that that wedding had Dad written all over it? I am not talking about the pictures and the feeling that he should be here with us to share this moment, although that was there for sure. He would have loved it and even though it was Kristin’s day, I think it would have been his day too. The wedding was shiny pink for crying out loud! I would have loved to see him out there; I think he would have even been out on the dance floor too.
Dad’s fireworks blowout was definitely not the same. I was out working most of the day, but when I was there, everyone was helping get ready, but the Orchestrator was not around. We got the job done and everything worked out great, but the biggest part of the show was missing. I think we did our best to make up for it with the show that we put on. I have to say, I have never experienced a fireworks display that brought tears to my eyes.
I also launched the newest version of my company’s software to the cloud, which very few people have and could do. It is actually the first in the oil and gas industry. I could not have done it within all that he taught me. I do have to be careful though to not go too far with how much I work sometimes so I do not burn myself out because I have been maxed out for a while now to make all of this happen.
Dad, I will carry you with me every step of the way.
Shawn
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